The Greatest Key

Since you've been gone
I've wondered if you were ever there at all
If your smiles and your laughter were just preludes to a fall
Something I couldn't stop
Something I couldn't see
And then I wonder if it should even matter to me.
Whatever you were before you might not be again
And anyway you broke my trust
So this could be the end
And who could turn around and say
"I don't understand why"?
Who wouldn't look back and see?
Who could really say they don't agree?
I have every right to give up now
I don't have to try
I know sometimes it's better to leave
Sometimes it's better to cash in your chips
And cry all you're going to cry.
No one can see the future
But everyone who tries can see the past
And if our past is our only key
How can we be so unsure of what we'll see?
And so I wonder if you were ever there at all
Or if you simply didn't have the words
To expound upon the blackness of your fall
So that in my trying to reach out to you
At first I didn't see
How ungrateful and unchanging you could be
And then I wonder if I should even care
So what if you were there?
You were there enough to break my heart
To break my trust
To force us apart
And if the parting is forever
Then perhaps it really is best
If I assume you never really meant to be there
Or that you never really could
That way when we meet later
I won't expect too much
And there won't be such a fuss
Over another silly broken heart.

~Ketlin, feb 17, 2003