(and sometimes Visions)
by Teri Lee Earl
By the time I was
fourteen years old I had
heard enough about bizarre experiences from my occult (New Age-like)
and stepfather. I had observed them to be spiritually empty
growing more and more mentally unstable as they delved more and more
their spiritual experiences. They clung to supernatural experiences as
if they were an addictive drug, while at the same time they denied more
obvious realities. Irrational at times, they also lacked
calling every experience “good” regardless of its
content or effect.
So once I
got away from it all, why would I want spiritual experiences? I did
not. Yet if you were to read my testimony
written some years ago, you would find that a vision and a dream were
in part responsible for my salvation.
Of course, I
was worried that psychic experiences
might return. For me ‘psychic’ abilities had become
a rather painful prospect.
The more I had explored them as a nonChristian the more I found myself
full of fear and loathing. So I talked to some Christian friends about
this but most of the time they had no specific advise for me.
it was the 1970’s at the time, and my family and my situation
and I understood that. However, one of our unofficial Christian elders
gave me a small book by Watchman Nee entitled, "The Latent Power of The
Soul," and this was extremely helpful.
As I prayed
and studied the scriptures, I
decided a general attitude of surrender was in order. After all, the
says, “my ways are higher than yours.” Therefore my
first prayer about
this subject was just to tell God that I would not fight what He
The Lord is the giver of gifts and I would be happy with whatever He
or whatever He did not give. Since then, I have discovered that God can
be rather generous with visions or dreams and other
regardless of any such obvious need, and even if they are rather
or unwanted by ourselves.
involved in two different fellowships
when I was young. The first fellowship was a place of growth and of
life, and the second became a source of great pain and spiritual death.
There is much
I could say about that but suffice it to say that a place where the
of death reigns is not worth the cost. Indeed, the
‘fruit’ between the
two types of fellowships are vastly different. When faced
place of spiritual death and over-control, it is better for young
to simply meet on their own with only the Holy Spirit and the Bible as
their guide, as some of my peers and I did for awhile when I was about
20 years old.
Since I had
few real opportunities for good
counsel, even though I reached out for it whenever I could, most of my
Christian growth was between the Lord and myself. These were
times. Not only did I have to overcome spiritual abuse well
it became quantified or named as "spiritual abuse" in the larger U.S.
community, I also had to overcome worse than that.
won't take time to describe much,
if anything, of what I have been through when I was younger, I have
decided to take the time
to write up this ‘diary’. Actually, I really did
not keep a 'diary' or journal in any way over many decades of my
life. The vast majority of these excerpts below
are entirely from memory. The reason they can be from memory is because
they were so pivotal, so 'memorable' in my life, that there was no way
I was going to forget them, even in all their detail.
Introductions and explanations will be as brief as possible yet
designed to teach others what I have learned from them.
Encouragement Regarding Dreams - An introduction regarding some basics
in discernment and interpretation
"Diary of Dreams" is
part of our Prophet
"Do not be
afraid of those who kill the body but cannot kill the soul. Rather, be
afraid of the One who can destroy both soul and body in hell.
Are not two sparrows sold for a penny? Yet not one of them will fall to
the ground apart from the will of your Father. And even the
very hairs of your head are all numbered. So don't be afraid; you are
worth more than many sparrows."
"Whoever acknowledges me before men, I will also acknowledge him before
my Father in heaven. But whoever disowns me before men, I will disown
him before my Father in heaven."
receives you receives me, and he who receives me receives the one who
sent me. Anyone who receives a prophet because he is a prophet will
receive a prophet's reward, and anyone who receives a righteous man
because he is a righteous man will receive a righteous man's reward.
And if anyone gives even a cup of cold water to one of these
little ones because he is my disciple, I tell you the truth, he will
certainly not lose his reward."
(Matt. 10:29-42 NIV)